I'm so tired of being alone...

I watched Sex & The City the other night and literally cried. It was the episode where Carrie turned 35, and was depressed because she didn't have a man in her life. Yes, I feel her pain, but my tears were caused by more than that.

Yes, my life is full - work, school, friends, kids, etc..etc...etc. However, that doesn't mean I don't want a man. Actually I do.

And yes, as a strong career woman, it ain't easy finding one. Not that I'm looking. But to even admit that I want/need a man in my life is so taboo - especially when men are 'supposedly' so outnumbered. 'Competition is fierce'. But I don't feel like competing.

I've vowed not only to not call JC, but to stop taking his calls. He's...I dunno..he's counterproductive. He's not loving me the way I deserve, and the energy I spend trying to be with him could be better spent on someone else. Beside, I've always been too damn available, which is why he feels like I'll always be there for him.

Damn, I want someone to be there for me - rescue my a$$, send me flowers, buy me candy, meet me for lunch just because. I hate to say it, but the older I get, it seems the more trifling men have become. Now, I understand why my mom stayed single for so many years.

Gotta go, ma head hurts...